Whatever. How’s everyone doing? What’s on YOUR mind? Who cares. What’s on MY Mind, that’s what people wanna read about! Okay. I don’t have things on my mind. I just DO things. I think that’s pretty universal. I guess I think a little bit about the things I’m doing and have done recently and the things that I have coming up! Either way my personal life is going okay but on a global scale it’s terrifying. As long as I can tune out Everything I’m pretty happy. I don’t want to tune everything out though. I go out of my way to stay informed IT’S IMPORTANT. Got some jerk threatening a civilization with nuclear weapons on social media. NO THANKS. I’m not, “Down,” with that sort of thing! Anyway I was sick all night. I took the covid vaccine booster yesterday morning and it kicked in last night! Great! That’s how you know it’s working. Couldn’t stay asleep because of a huge shoulderache and feeling weak and feverish and whatknot. Stayed in bed today until around 2:30 PM. NOW I FEEL OK FOR NOW. Started re-binge watching RENO 9/11. Good show! Makes me laugh. I’d rather watch comedy TV than live in fear and think about it and face the facts that we’re ruled by evil greedy insane people and no one seems to be willing to do anything about it. Sometimes I can watch comedy TV AND live in fear and think about it and face the facts that we’re ruled by evil greedy insane people etc. Multi-task!
Cool. I dunno. We’ll figure something out! Doesn’t seem like it. SURE WE WILL. YOU’LL SEE. I for one am against the country I live in and support with my tax dollars doing Ethnic Cleansing. Gotta make my truth heard! I don’t find that kind of position or action acceptable from a representative or leader! Anyway. What else is going on. Maybe if I was a better person I’d live in a better universe. If I put betterness out there I’d get butterness back. THIS IS ALL MY FAULT I guess. Hmm. In what way am I a bad person. Just kind of an asshole all in all when you think about it. Oh Okay. I guess I kinda don’t relate to people well. Is that a sin. Is that one of the ten commandments. Thou Shalt Relate To Everyone And Get On With One Another. I dunno. I’m a leech on my parents. THEY SUPPORT ME FINANCIALLY. Bad Son. Bad Seed. I’m the bad seed! That’s two things that are wrong with me. A THIRD THING AND I’M OUT. Hmm. I’m short. Pretty sure that counts. Yep. That’s the third thing! Anyway. Now I gotta do Three Good Things to counterbalance those bad things. WHAT HUBRIS. That’s the fourth thing that’s wrong with me. To even THINK I can DO A GOOD THING. Fourth Wrong Thing About Me.
Anyway. Had a good music class yesterday. Teacher made us all put on guitars, even the non-guitar players, and ham it up. Not even play real stuff. Just play pretend. ALL TO MAKE ME FEEL COMFORTABLE I assume. Worked a little bit! I still DON’T feel comfortable playing guitar and making movements. Whether it’s facial expressions or wilding out with my guitar or anything. BEST I CAN DO is walk around the stage a little bit. That I can handle. That gets the message across I’M INTO IT. I still prefer Just Standing There or even better Sitting Down. It’s easier for me and besides the music should take centerstage. But I understand that for Rock Band Music it can help to make a show out of it. Anyway. I realized that the entire 2.5 seasons I’ve been in School Of Rock every time we have practice or do a real show I always stand in the back and off to the side for every song. Where no one can see me. That’s where the guitar amps are! But still, cables are long! I guess I can start making a habit of walking around way up to the front center of the stage sometimes if I want to. If I’m confident in the song and want everyone to see me, the guitar player, and whatknot. Great. Hmm. That’s where singers stand though. Front and center. They’re already there! Why should I try to take over their space!
Okay. Anyway. We should organize ourselves in ascending height order possibly. Like elementary school class photo. Anyway I saw Louie CK and Kanye West are back for some reason. Not really sure why. Guess a lot of people just don’t care anymore. It hurts my feelings as someone who vaguely cares a little bit. I WON’T be going to the Kanye Westfest or the Louie CKomedy Show. They’re still the same shitty people they were before and also my impression is they’re not even putting out very good work these days. But whatever. Not even GOOD Shitty People. I’m a shitty person but they’re REALLY SHITTY people. They have done and/or said terrible things and shown no remorse and then gotten rewarded for it. I’ve JUST SAID kinda dumb things and DONE kinda POINTLESS THINGS and also NOT gotten rewarded for it! Oh well. I’m sure I’ve done or said some straight up bad things in my life. Hmm. Yeah We Went Over This! The three or four things that I’m bad person for! IT’S BEEN COVERED. Hmm. The point is The World Is Wrong. The world is doing the wrong thing by accepting Kanye and Louie back. BAD DECISION. BAD WORLD. You’re putting lots of people through pain and distress by platforming these men, so go fuck off with that!
Okay. Good. Hope I don’t feel sick tonight. Usually when I feel sick from Covid Vaccine it lasts several nights in a row! Anyway. I dunno. WELL anyway at least I can watch several dozen episodes of Reno 0911. That’s a pretty funny show. I looked up Forgotten TV Comedy Gems from the 2000’s online in hopes that Reno 911 was given credit but ya know what? None of those lists included Reno 911! Seems wrong. Maybe because the compilers Never Forgot Reno 911. Because it’s certainly funny enough! NEVER FORGET. Anyway. I remember good times watching the Reno 911 movie in my dormitory on the NYU channel. NYU had its own channel! Showed movies before anyone else! Well, not before theaters. But before HBO and whatknot. Good stuff. That’s something I remembered. Go figure. Now I don’t even HAVE to remember it! It’s written out in the weblog. If I ever wanna think about it again all I have to do is read this! Easy! Hmm. That’s not good. The more I talk the more I train myself to forget things. Well I’m talking about it so it will be preserved on the internet forever so I don’t really NEED to remember it. But that’s not a good way to go about your brain. Huh. Now I can do other stuff with my brain besides remember stuff. What else is there. MATH FUNCTIONS. IMAGINATIONING. Just THINKING about things if that’s what the situation calls for! Anyway that’s it. I’ll see ya later.
-6:47 P.M.
APRIL 7 2026
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