Hey! It’s time to write an entry. I guess something will appear. I have some sort of a brain to conjure up thoughts and some sort of body and appendages to mechanically put those ideas down and a keyboard and a computer to accept my body’s wishes. IT’S ALL LIES. NONE OF THIS IS ANYTHING. IT’S ALL NOTHING. NOT A THING. WE’RE READING EMPTY BLANKNESS AND THE WIND. Anyway I got a new computer last week. The old one stopped working all of a sudden. I like new things. Products. It feels good because this computer is gonna last me Forever. Or at least Rounding Off To Forever. A few years is closer to Forever than Zero. Rounds off to forever! This brand of computer is Asus. IS that like a FUBU situation brand name. As Us For Us? Makes sense if the CPU ever achieves consciousness or if we’re comparing it lifelike like AI to humanity. It’s AS US FOR US. Anyway. If it was a FUBU situation then As Us would be an acronym. As Us For Us would be an inappropriate extrapolation. INAPPROPRIATE EXTRAPOLATION! I should try rapping. Record a rap song. Just to see what I’m capable of. I’m probably not capable of that. That was quick. I found out what I was capable of in less than 8 seconds just now!
What’s my theme if I were to put together a rap album. Hustle and Flow or something. That was already a thing in a movie! Yeah but I never saw it. I’ve watched 8 Mile a dozen times and I guess I like it but there’s always something about it that just feels wrong. Can’t say quite what it is. Part of it I think it’s because Why would Eminem’s character ever go by Rabbit. Too easy for his rap opponents to call him the, “F,” word. It would come up too often! UNREALISTIC MOVIE. Even without the, “F,” word it’s just not a good name. Also I think Actual Eminem is a great rapper but I don’t think B-Rabbit is that good. Here and there he shows some promise but I’m not sold on B-Rabbit ever achieving that much success, I dunno. But Michael he’s just starting off this is the beginnings he’s gonna get better. People don’t get better. People get worse. That’s how humanity works in general and how The Rap Game works in specific I would assume! Anyway. It’s named after a street. That exists. Sometimes Eminem had to cross the street. We Must Name The Movie After That. Brilliant work guys. Why did Eminem Cross The Street. Why. To rap or something I dunno, yeesh. To be fair the second of two times I did mushrooms I spent hours having deep conversations with my friends and on my way home I wrote down just one thing in my travel notepad to remember and it was The Street I had just walked down. That I live near and see all the time. Wow. Streets are deep I guess. Hmm.
Is B-Rabbit as a character DOOMED because of the fable Tourtaise and The Hare. And there’s a Tourtaise out there and whoever/whatever that person or thing or concept they are they are destined to succeed over B-Rabbit! I dunno. Do fairy tales always come true? I dunno. I practiced my Rolling Stones songs for the first time yesterday in like a month if we don’t count the times I play them during lessons. Alright! I’m not great at them. But I’ll do a half-assed job I guess. I could always start practicing every day or three times a week or something for the next 3 weeks until the show in 3 weeks. If I did that I’d probably a respectable job by the time Show Comes Round. Yeah! I bought a BASS GUITAR this summer. School Of Rock assigned me a song or two on the bass, thinking I’d be interested. I was! I had to buy a bass guitar though. I did! It’s fun! I’m into it! Still don’t really know what I’m doing but that applies to most aspects of my life! At least playing bass guitar is FUN while I don’t know what I’m doing. Most aspects of my life I just don’t know what I’m doing without it being much fun. I should make a pact with myself to work on music this weekend. Can’t really do it Friday. Busy. Can’t really do it Saturday! Still busy! I should make a pact with myself to work on music this Sunday. Wow. Sunday.
Okay. When Harry Met Sally. I can’t take either of these people seriously. Their names end in, “Y!” Get actual serious names and then I’ll watch your movie. I might sometimes go by Michael, I might sometimes go by Mike, but never in my life have I ever said my name was Mikey. Now that I think about it maybe there’s some merit to Mikey. Hey Mikey Get Over Here. Who said that. I don’t want to be Mikey. They better not be talking to me. There’s no good reason for the moniker, “Mikey!” Just like these entries. It’s not funny or creative or different. It does kill a little bit of time. My theory is people just want to kill time and are VERY desperate. It’s a good theory! I should come up with better theory, sure, I guess. Anyway it was my birthday last week. I turned, lemme think, thirty SEVEN. I figure I got a few good years left in me! THREE or so! That’s a few! Then I’m old. Kinda sucks. I wanna do something with my life, yet much of my life is over! Kind of a conundrum. Real BRAIN TEASER. People can do something with their lives in their forties. I guess. Then declare victory after Doing Something for 8 or 10 years and retire, having done things! Life Accomplished. You don’t retire when you’re 50, you gotta keep doing things even though you’re older. Oh. That’s true. You gotta Do OLDER THINGS. That’s great. The point is at this rate I will continue doing nothing forever. And I’m not facetiously rounding off to forever. I just mean forever!
THAT’S GREAT. That’s wrong I’m building up to something. Not sure what. We’ll see! Some sort of achievement, I don’t know. It’s called 8 Mile, they tell us, because 8 Mile represents the division between White & Black Detroit or something. That’s what I remember them saying. BUT the movie, as far as I can tell, isn’t really ABOUT the division between White & Black Detriout! Race is relevant but not really that much a key issue in the movie! Maybe it’s key to B Rabbit’s inner story but I watch the movie and I’m not thinking about White & Black Detroit all the time while I’m watching it! I Dunno! Anyway there’s a very romantic scene where Eminem has sex with Brittany Murphy in a factory. I guess. Not sure what to make of their relationship. She motivates him to rap well! Something like that. Anyway. Christmas is in a week. Santa’s Coming! Probably. People have been getting Christmas Gifts for hundreds of years without fail. No reason to think it’ll stop this year. I might watch Mad Men soon. I never seen it before. It might be too intense. It involves the 1950’s and that just seems like a lot to handle. People were jerks and assholes back then and I dunno if I could stand immersing myself in that kind of environment! We’ll see. Anyway, I’ll see ya soon!
-1:52 P.M
DEC 18 2025
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