Author: Crazysheet

   Okay Good.  I’ve got bad news, I’ve been identifying with Darth Vader.  I was watching the Star Wars prequel trilogy the last few days and I’ve been enjoying it.  So there ya go.  I think they’re pretty good films!  You see Jar Jar Binks is so annoying as to get us really angry and turned off such that we Identify With Anakin While He Turns To The Dark Side.  They’re LAYERED movies!  I’ve seen these films a few times before but I’m paying slightly more attention this time.  I still don’t like the pre-amble for any of these three films.  For at least two of the three, the text that appears in the beginning that sets up the plot for the film, although it presumably is simple enough that a children can understand it, I’m left thinking WHA?  HUH?  I DON’T GET IT.  THESE 3 PARAGRAPHS CONFUSE ME.  I DUNNO WHY BUT MOST OF THESE WORDS MAKE NO SENSE TOGETHER.  MIGHT JUST BE THE ANGLE THEY’RE AT.  CONFUSING ANGLE.  WHY.  Maybe my problem is it’s cause there’s so much pressure to read it while it’s passing by.  I gotta read it before it leaves the screen and I’m panicking because I don’t operate well under pressure!  Maybe cause the plot is always confusing.  THE SENATE IS DOIN SOMETHING.  CHANCELLOR UP TO NO GOOD.  SEPERATIST SOLAR SYSTEMS OR SOMETHIN.  YOU’LL SEE.  I guess my reading comprehension is POOR.
   Anyway.  They’re good films though.  Quite the spectacle!  I can get into this!  I really liked Episode One: The Phantom Menace.  WHO is the Phantom Menace.  I have several guesses.  The truth is there might be multiple phantom menaces.  No, the title is pretty clear there’s a singular Phantom Menace.  Oh okay.  Anyway.  What else is up.  Am I committed to binge watching All Of Star Wars after I finish Episode III: Revenge Of The Sith?  No I don’t think so.  I could stop whenever I want!  Do I want to stop then?  I got nothing better to watch!  Sure, there are other things to watch on the TV.  STRANGER Things perhaps.  After my show on Saturday I promise to start working on music again.  To myself.  You can accept that promise if you want.  But it’s really a self promising. Music will really only be for myself, too!  You won’t get much out of it for now!  You won’t even be able to listen to it for who-knows-how-long/ever!  Anyway.  Softcorn Porn called Jedi Nights.  Softcorn?  Yeah like when the band Korn Goes Acoustic.  Anyway.  I’m still inadequately fucking around for parts of 2-3 songs out of the 9 I’m on for my SOR show.  Just hopefully barely making sense musically are the notes I’m playing for those 2-3 bits of songs.  But ALL IN ALL I feel comfortable with how much prepared I am for the show.  The amount I’m prepared is to be Barely HOLDING MY OWN!  That’s GOOD ENOUGH I GUESS.
   Wow.  I identified with Darth Vader in Episode I because I am the same height as a nine year old.  What more do you want from me.  Anyway.  I don’t see myself Going Towards The Dark Side.  I don’t WANT to be evil.  Get off my back about it!  Just use the force.  Listen to Yoda.  Pretty simple stuff.  How come Yoda has had thousands of students but none of them adopt his way of speaking.  He speaks in a very specific sentence structure, and I assume he’s taken on lots of PERSONAL MENTORSHIPS, and I’m pretty sure all of them Talk Unlike Him But Like Everyone Else.  Seems like if I was mentored by Master Yoda I’d come out of it Speaking Like Him.  If he was really my Main Master for the long run.  Talk Like Him I Would.  Otherwise how deep is this apprenticeship really!  Anyway.  I dunno.  Halfway through the entry.  Halfway through my life, maybe.  Probably!  Bought new jeans online.  For some reason my jeans keep ripping in the crotch area.  The bottom/back of the crotch area.  Takes about 3-5 months but it’s inevitable!  Same with socks.  Takes about 6-8 weeks for socks!  But a sock’ll tear in the toe area at some point, you can bet on it!  You can bet on anything!  It’s encouraged!  Not sure how I feel about that.  I’m all for personal freedoms but it seems like not the best use of your time and/or resources!
    Whatever.  What were the odds Michael Complains About His Clothes Ripping.  80:1?  WHO WON BIG MONEY ON THAT?  Why is that something people do.  Anyway maybe I should be identifying with The Incredible Hulk. Off the top of my head His Clothes Rip Too. Rest In Pieces, The Incredible Hulk’s Clothes.  They’re dead cause they’re broken.  Tattered.  No longer useful as clothing.  Anyway.  How are there THIS MANY aliens in Star Wars.  LOOK in real life Humans would be shocked to find out ONE Kind Of Aliens!  In Star Wars there’s, what, TENS OF THOUSANDS kinds of aliens?  Hundreds of thousands?  Already thousands SOLAR SYSTEMS populated.  Exponentially more aliens you’d think.  I dunno.  What’s the ratio of Pretty Much Human Aliens to Weird Lookin’ Aliens.  1:1?  2:1?  1:2?  I HAVEN’T PAID ATTENTION ENOUGH.  Anyway.  I remember seeing Star Wars IV re-released in theaters as a kid as well as The Exorcist re-released in theaters.  Both were fun experiences!  Any other films re-released in theaters Michael?  HMM.  ISN’T TWO ENOUGH FOR YOU?  I guess to make sure I’m not forgetting anything I have to Browse A List Of Every Movie Ever Made.  Meh.  Or find a list of Every Movie That’s Ever Been Ever Popularly Re-released.  That’s a fraction of a fraction!  YEAH.
    OKAY.  Not Sure what t-shirt to wear to my show on Saturday.  That’s a tough one.  HMM.  I don’t wanna wear my Rolling Stones t-shirt.  We’re doing a Rolling Stones show!  PER MY UNDERSTANDING THAT WOULD BE LAME.  Anyway.  The good news is I’ll probably stand in the back corner again so no one will be able to see me either way.  They’ll be none the wiser that I’m even there!  They’ll know 2-3 times over the course of the 14 songs that Something Sounds Off but they won’t be able to quite put their finger on it!  Sure they will.  Guitar.  People know what a guitar sounds like.  One of the guitars will sound off.  Oh Okay Good.  Anyway.  When pressed to choose between Star Wars and Star Trek, I’d always identify more with Star Wars content but Star Trek fans.  Star Wars is a little more engaging but Star Trek fans are smarter.  They’re NERDS LIKE ME.  Per my understanding. Trek is a nerdy word!  Let’s go on a, “Trek.”  Only a nerd would say that!  And I like it.  Anyway.  There’s a Wilco album called Star Wars released roughly 2015.  Seems like a real choice to use that title.  Really gotta wonder what Wilco was going for.  It’s not ABOUT Star Wars.  Unless it’s in the subtext.  I dunno.  Is it possible to read into the supertext of something.  My guess is No I Don’t Think So.  Alright.  I’ll see ya later.

-4:39 P.M.

JAN 6 2026

   Great.  Gotta write five paragraphs of some sort of content.  Judge me not on the color of my skin but on the content of my paragraphs.  Also Should we be judging people on the contents of their characters, either?  Maybe we just shouldn’t be judging people at all!  Unless we’re judges!  That’s a special case!  I dunno I judge people on the content of their character all the time.  It’s a big part of my life.  Without it I don’t know what I would do!  Society judging people on the content of their character encourages people to have better characters!  So it sounds like a productive social activity I guess.  ANYWAY.  Tobey Maguire: Don’t Judge Me On The Content Of My Character.  Me: You Mean Spiderman?  What else is going on.  Spiderman is a character not just Tobey Maguire plays but one that Tobey Maguire As Peter Parker plays.  Discuss.  Hmm.  Here’s a thought—If Zohran Mandani was a baseball player and he hit a homerun a sports color commentator might call it a, “Mamdinger!”  Wow.  Here’s a thought—A right wing news color commentator might say, “With Zohran as mayor we are all in Mamdanger.” Great.  WELL those are the Two Puns you can make out of his last name!  See ya later!  What else is up.  What’s the over/under of Mamdani playing himself as Mayor Of New York in at least one major motion film in the next four or eight years. 
     Spiderman Films would possibly be appropriate!  Spiderman lives in New York.  Unless Spiderman tweeted out in August he’s leaving New York if Mamdani wins.  I don’t think Peter Parker would do that!  Maybe Black Suit Spiderman would do that.  EVIL SPIDERMAN/Venom would vote for Cuomo and threaten to leave if Mamdani won. Anyway.  Why would Peter Parker be on twitter.  Can’t get enough of Grok like the rest of us.  Oh okay.  Unless Peter Parker is gearing up TO FIGHT Grok then I don’t get it.  Anyway.  Re-watched Adaptation last night for maybe the 25^th time.  This time I got even more out of it!  Each time I watch it I generally get a little more out of it than the last time.  It’s one of those movies that somehow improves with age!  My age!  Not so much its age!  Maybe its age, too, I guess, I dunno!  Hmm.  Also it STARTED OUT as one of my favorite movies of all time.  So for it to always improve on that over and over is pretty cool!  Keep in mind that in 2003 when I first saw it I still primarily wanted to be a screenwriter.  KEEP THAT INSIDE YOUR MIND for a few seconds.  I’ll let you know when you can stop.  OK now’s good.  NOW think about anything you want!  FREETIME.  Play Space!  Go Wild!  Lady’s Choice!  Have Fun!  Now start paying attention to the next paragraph.
     OKAY.  If I wanted to be a screenwriter how come I never wrote a screen.  Or a script.  Or any sort of Film at all.  Same reason I’m not doing music right now.  Cause I was and/or am is AN IDIOT.  Not too late for me to write a screenplay NOW in 2026.  But I don’t want to anymore.  NONSENSE.  The thing you want to do when you’re 12-14 is the thing YOU REALLY wanna do.  You just FORGETTABOUTIT as a teenager.  But Preteen Dream is really what you’re meant for!  I read about it in a Hot Take somewhere maybe on the internet.  Also I never really got about how Screenplays are supposed to be detailed and elaborate.  I just always thought they were People Say Things Along With The Barest Amount Of Bones of Stage Directions Happening.  But NOW I think they’re supposed to be really detailed and imaginative and provocative.  I don’t… I can’t… that’s not… I don’t even want to… SORRY.  Hmm.  Besides I’m on a Music Kick.  I FANTASIZE about Making MUSIC.  BUT ENOUGH ABUOT ME.  What are you fantasizing about right now?  Kinda thinkin about the Ludacris song, “What’s Your Fantasy.”  Because that’s how my brain works.  Words remind me of the same word and THAT’S HOW MY CREATIVITY MANIFESTS.  What a vivid imagination!  Anyway I gotta do SOMETHING this year.  This is the year of DOING SOMETHING.  Multiple Things seems like what I’m aiming for but Something might be the more responsible way to go.  I don’t want to overextend myself! That’s a good way of putting pressure on my joints!  Disjointing myself!  Don’t do it.
    Fuck.  Anyway.  I got bad news the water in my bath/shower is very cold.  Luke warm at best.  It’s not pleasant taking a bath or shower because of it!  I don’t know why this keeps happening.  I blame The Way Of Water.  I assume this is what the second Avatar movie was about I wasn’t really paying attention.  Anyway.  I’m looking at my old middle school’s website and I don’t see ONE of my old teachers still teaching there.  I graduated middle school just a year or so before I saw Adaptation for the first time!  That is a long time I GUESS.  But at the same time it’s not that long ago!  24 years.  Okay yeah but so what.  Teachers teach!  What’s your point.  I dunno.  FOR TE RECORD none of my elementary school teachers are still there, either!  WHY is the world moving on as if I Never Existed!  ALL PROOF OF THE WORLD I INHABITED IS GONE.  It’s like What I Experienced Didn’t Even Happen!  Pretty sure most of my classmates are still around.  They can testify that my K-8 years occurred!  Oh good.  Who cares.  It’s a part of Michael’s History.  In my presidential library one day we’re gonna want everyone to know the full story!  I WANT to know the full story!  I forget most things.  I want someone to remind me. I remember 30 other kids and 1 teacher at a time.  And the teacher would try to teach.  And I would try to be a Smart Alex.  And that’s about it!  I think the term is Smart Alec.  How many Alec’s do you know.  Alec Baldwin, that’s all.  The term is Smart Alex, thanks!
   Anyway.  Google’s definition of Smart Aleck is different than mine.  I’M JUST GONNA GO AHEAD and assume everyone is on board with Mine though.  Seems foolish.  Yeah!  Also I’m NOT saying I was a Smart Aleck.  I was a Smart ALEX.  I TOLD YOU.  Different thing!  Well anyway.  Anyway now I’m a Dumb… Jerkoff.  I dunno what name to go along with Dumb.  Just Jerkoff’ll do I guess.  We go through different phases as we age!  It’s the circle of life!  Smart, Dumb, whatever!  It all comes out in the wash!  Also Dumb people are some of the smartest people I know!  You can be dumb and be really smart sometimes!  I’m basing that on Hope.  On account of Because I’m Dumb.  So that’s good.  Anyway.  What’s the next holiday coming up.  Valentine’s Day?  I gave a girl a valentine once.  In third grade.  Girl in my class named Stephanie.  I forget if it was just a personal card or if I gave some sort of minor gift whatever it may have been.  Either way I don’t remember ever getting any sort of response so she must not have cared at all.  And that’s the furthest I’ve ever gotten Romantically with someone.  Sort of!  We were friends beforehand.  We would laugh about things in class and whatknot.  But she apparently couldn’t give two shits about my deep heartfelt feelings for her.  Just acted like it never even happened!  It’s POSSIBLE I never gave her the Valentine.  I just thought about doing it.  Hmm.  Anyway.  That’s all! See ya!

-4:32 P.M.

JAN 2 2026

   Hey!  What in the world am I gonna talk about today.  We all just had a New Years. Everyone could relate to that.  We’re all following the same calendar more or less.  Except for Chinese people.  And Jews.  Vietnamese now that I think about it.  Probably most people don’t follow these New Years.  Oh.  Well everyone knows WHAT IT’S LIKE to Have A New Years.  So you may not have just celebrated with us last night but you GET IT.  Church Of Ladder Dais Saints don’t celebrate New Years.  It’s frivolous.  Leads to sin.  Hmm.  I like New Years because I prefer being in this part of The Solar System.  The other side?  In July?  Way on the opposite side of the sun?  I just don’t like that part of space!  Just SUCKS around there.  I CAN TELL THE DIFFERENCES.  I CAN TEACH YOU TOO.  FOR PRACTICALLY NOTHING I’LL TEACH YOU.  I don’t think that’s what astrology is, is it?  It’s a lot like astrology.  It sure sounds like I’m talking about astrology.  I thought I came up with something new.  I haven’t come up with something new since 2024.  That was YEARS ago as of today.  I ordered me some sock.  White socks.  Kind of like the baseball team.  Sort of.  First time in years I’ve gotten white socks.  For at least four or five years, and probably more, I’ve worn exclusively black socks.  Also sort of like the other baseball team.  Nope. 
    Anyway.  When you search Black Sox it produces results because The White Sox scandal of 1919, they called it Black Sox scandal as a FUN PUN.  Because Black meant, “Bad.”  They did something Wrong or Improper.  Like in the Rolling Stone song it means Paint It, “Incorrectly,” or, “The Way You Shouldn’t Do It.”  I might disagree with that.  Michael Jackson was famously black and he made an entire album called, “Bad,” so put two and two together!  2+2=2!  What are we supposed to be painting it black.  In real life.  Off the top of my head Border Wall comes to mind.  Parts of sports courts?  Basketball or something?  I think you paint black lines or something onto court!  Huh.  The point is for a brief period of time writing the last paragraph I genuinely thought there was a team called the Chicago White Sox for a second and then the next second I briefly entertained the idea there was a team called the Chicago Black Sox.  Speaking of Terrible Jokes I watched Ricky Gervais’s new special yesterday.  I guess I’ll give him a 3/10 but that’s because 1/10 is too low and I can’t find my 2/10.  Oh right I gave MYSELF the 2/10.  Then Shouldn’t I Have It Somewhere?  Touche.  I can’t regift the 2/10 though anyway.  It’s Been Given!  No Re-Giving Ratings!  Anyway.  I ended up getting Supreme Pizza from Pizza Hut last night.  Because I always like to Eat the last thing I saw in theaters.
     Apparently MTV is no more.  I liked Music Videos.  I went through a couple of phases of regularly watching MTV for the music videos in my life.  By the time I came of adolescence though MTV was already less, “Music Television,” and more, “EMPTY ‘v” whatever V stands for!  Just FELT DEVOID OF SOMETHIN, PURE ARTISTIC EXPRESSION, I DUNNO.  Too commercial.  Too mainstream.  Too catered to teenagers.  And even though I WAS a teenager I didn’t like what they were doing!  And of course by the time I was a was an upper teenager most of what they were showing had little to do with music.  Just reality shows.  Which I watched some of!  I liked BUSSED.  What was that one called?  NOT IT?  QUICK DATE?  NEXT.  It was called Next.  People go on micro dates waiting on busses and then one of them can say NEXT at any time they feel like its not going anywhere and then their date is replaced by someone else.  I always liked it when A New Guy Would Appear and the woman would go NEXT immediately within the first 2 seconds cause the guy happened to be short.  And everyone really digs into him because it’s a reality show and they’re mean to a point.  Happened every third episode.  That always increased my teenage confidence!  Anyway.  Why are people so mean.  Oh well I learned an important lesson.  Don’t go on reality shows.  In fact don’t live in reality.  Stay clear of that mess altogether.
   Anyway.  Yeah.  Fuck MTV!  It looks like MTV still might exist to some extent.  Huh.  Just no music videos.  Great.  So only the bad stuff. Good for them.  Gotta show the VMAS somewhere!  It’s an important event!  Remember that time… slime…. Wait that’s the Kids Choice Awards… you get the idea!  Anyway.  I dunno.  If I were slimed by Nickelodeon at some event FOR WHOM am I suffering this ultimate humiliation?  Is it really for the kids?  I don’t think kids really care to see me or anyone really embarrassed like this!  I think it’s some sad adults who decided to slime me and hide behind oh the kids would think its funny.  But it’s really the adults that are doing it.  And one day they’ll pay.  Anyway.  DID YOU ever watch Nick growing up and see any poor sap get slime poured on them and go YES IT’S BEEN A LONG TIME COMING FOR YOU ADULT.  CHLIDREN SUFFER INDIGNITY ALL THE TIME AND NOW YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS.  I dunno.  Whenever I saw someone get randomly slimed, adult or kid, I think I always just felt, there’s already so much pain in the world.  Why add to it.  What are we doing here.  HERE?  RIGHT NOW?  Not much friend.  I’m still trying and failing at getting up in the morning instead of at Noon.  Once I can figure out how to wake up when I’m supposed to, everything else will fall into place!   
   Okay.  I GUESS.  It’s a good guess.  Wasn’t a huge fan of Dave Chappelle’s latest Comedy Special either.  It just Wasn’t That Great!  Coulda been better.  I don’t really like 90% of anything I see, but Gervais and Chappelle underperforming stands out because they’ve highly entertained me in the past!  Gervais more in TV than standup.  But anyway I’ve thought I identified with them!  But then it turns out sometimes they’re unfunny jerks sometimes!  AH WELL.  Life goes on!  That’s a good title for Gervais’ next special.  Write that down.  This is written recorded medium.  Yeah.  YEAH.  Anyway.  Who cares.  I could have watched two Better Stand Up Specials the last two weeks though instead of the ones I watched, though.  I didn’t!  I’m sure they’re available to me somewhere.  Must be an APP for that somehow.  Stand Up Streaming for free somehow!  Some specials that I’d like a lot.  Something NEW AND FRESH but also in line with my past tastes and sensibilities.  I don’t want anything too challenging!  Huh.  Maybe I should just watch old comedy specials from classic comedians I already know and love… That sounds good too.  I dunno.  I already seen that it sounds like.  Probably should watch something I haven’t seen!  HMM.  Anyway.  I’ll see ya tomorrow.

-6:25 P.M.     

   Hey!  Today is New Years Evening!  It’s one of my favorite holidays.  In the top three or four!  I don’t know why I get excited about The New Year.  I guess my default mode is sometimes being a generally Optimistic guy.  I feel like the next year, more often than naught, is gonna be A GOOD Year!  I THINK things are getting worse all the time.  But I FEEL like Hey Who Knows Not Me.  Anyway.  I saw Marty Supreme yesterday.  I was disappointed that it wasn’t about pizza!  I THOUGHT some guy named Marty was gonna be ordering a Large Supreme pie or two!  You know when there’s some vegetables and some meat toppings!  It was a good movie anyway.  Just had all the plot and characters and etc. that you want!  I don’t wan’t to spoil anything for you, but there’s several people and they each do several things over the course of the film.  Well some of the people might only do one or no things.  But you get the idea.  One problem I had with it—I wanted more ping pong.  There’s a lot of ping pong but I wanted EVEN MORE ping pong!  That’s how much I enjoyed the ping pong!  Now that I think about it, more ping pong might have cheapened the ping pong that was there that I enjoyed.  Filmmaking is tough I guess.  Could have been a 3-D movie, too.  Most 3-d Movies don’t need to be 3-D movies, but this is a 2-d Movie that really could have benefited from it!  Marty Supreme Ping Pongs DIRECTLY AT THE AUDIENCE.  Imagine it!  No.  YOU imagine it.
    Another cast member of The Wire died!  They’re dropping like flies.  Which are notorious for dropping dead out of the sky all the time.  How often are going about your day and you notice flies dropping from midair to the ground because they just died!  This new The Wire dead is the guy who says Sheeeeeit!  I could LIE and say he inspired my website name!  I think I created it before the first time he said it.  The first time I know of is in The 25^th Hour which was released in 2002.  I BELIEVE I registered the domain in 2002.  But I probably didn’t see the movie until a year or two later.  What would the purpose of that lie be.  Some people are compulsive liars!  It’s fun for them!  Maybe they’re onto something is all I’m saying!  The motive for compulsive lying is Compulsion.  And I don’t have that.  I might decide to make Lots Of Lying something I want to do but it still won’t be COMPULSIVE lying!  YEAH.  Huh.  I think I’ll be okay for my show a week from Saturday.  My strategy is turn the volume low so people won’t hear my mistakes, but everyone else’s mistakes! Anyway.  Substitute teacher on Monday was saying that for my guitar solo in one of the songs the singer should be like GO MIKE and then I step up from the background and make a show of it.  That’s CRINGE.  I don’t like it.  The good news is he’s Substitute.  He has no authority here.  I dunno, though! Maybe it helps get me in the mindset of Good Solo.  Oh everyone’s on me now okay now It’s Time For Me To Go GO FINGERS GO.  It could help more than it hurts in its cringiness All In All.  MAYBE TEACHER SMART.
     Whatever.  The word Cringe is cringe to me!  I don’t remember saying Cringe when I was a kid!  Seems like a Gen Z thing!  THUS the word Cringe coming out of my mouth FEELS Cringe!  When we were kids we didn’t care so much about Cringe Or Not Cringe.  JUST LIVE YOUR LIFE.  DAMN.  GET OVER YOURSELFS.  I guess we cared to some extent but not so much that the word Cringe had to rule over our lexicon!  Cringe is the title of first song on the first Alkaline Trio album.  That’s pretty much my main association with the word when I was in high school!  Good.  I like the name Alkaline Trio.  Alkaline.  It makes me think of Alcohol AND cocaine without mentioning EITHER.  Do some coke and then augment it with alcohol.  ALK A LINE.  WOW.  You can do liens of many drugs besides cocaine.  If we’re Family Fueding Lines, though, Cocaine has gotta be at the top.  Apparently It’s My First Guess at the very least!  I like cocaine because it makes me think of Coca leaves and innie belly buttons.  I like coca leaves because it makes me think of coca cola and leaves.  I like coca cola.  DIET.  But as long as its diet, sure, I like Diet Coke!  I’m on rhythm guitar for Paint It Black but what about the song Dye It Coke.  Not sure what we’re even doing here.  I saw it on Apple Mus and now apparently everywhere I look the song is being stylized as, “Paint It, Black.”  WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN.  I could swear it always used to be, “Paint It Black.”  That makes a thousand times more sense than, “Paint It, Black.”  This is some sort of gaslighting conspiracy of the Nth level, right?  Paint It, Black?  What the fuck?
   Huh.  Google says it was intended as, “Paint It Black,” but the label added the comma by accident Way Back When.  Okay.  Fine. Fuckers.  I’m gonna start a campaign to take away the comma from, “Paint It, Black!” retroactively! Certainly we can form a consensus on this one!  Once we have the will we’ll figure out the way!  Okay great.  Remember that Smiths song Girlfriend In A Comma.  Is that relevant here.  OH IS THIS what an OXFORD COMMA is?  That’s an actual song!  I never learnt it up though! Sure I listened to the song enough times but I learned nothing from it!  I might see Anaconda this weekend.  I might not!  Depends on how I feel.  PAINT IT, JACK BLACK?  Sure.  Jack Black should play that famous TV Painter For Kids.  Jack Black should play whoever he wants.  I’m not here to tell Jack Black who he should and shouldn’t play.  Bob Ross.  There’s that negative expression It’s Like Watching Paint Dry but they still decided to make that into a TV show anyway!  And it became a CULTURAL PHENOMENOUN!  But it’s not just paint drying.  You get to see the paint being applied in the first place.  And you get to see The Guy Do It!  Watch Him Have Fun And Narrate His Actions!  Not my favorite TV Show.  Where’s the conflict! Where’s the drama!  He always ends up with a halfway decent painting And That’s Pretty Much All That Ever Happens.
   Huh.  I need to have a New Years Eve Private Personal Party tonight.  Right now all I can think to do is Eat Something Fun For Dinner.  I was thinking Whtie Castle or something, but maybe Chipotle is even more fun.  Despite there being less of it.  One Burrito is less food than A Whole Lot Of White Castle… but it still might be more fun!  I’ve given myself a lot to think about.  Eat a bag of popcorn later late at night.  Eat the popcorn.  Not the bag.  I could watch Special Things I guess tonight.  Something fun.  The show is called Stranger Things not Special things.  NO I meant I wanna watch something that would Be A Real Treat.  Something I would get a particular kick out of…  Hmm.  There’s always Twilight Zone Marathon!  There’s always Abbott Elementary which I’ve been binging lately!  There’s always Stranger Things which I’m also working on!  There’s always actual Special Things which may or may not be out there!  Ring in the new year by working on music.  Maybe.  I can do that.  Sure.  Maybe.  I guess.  Why not.  Anything is possible.  It’s a big multiverse with lots of differing future threads.  Or maybe it’s a small world, only getting smaller!  I DON’T KNOW.  Seems like a relatively big world.  It’d take me 80 days to get around it by balloon more or less.  Per my understanding.  Anyway.  I’ll see ya later.

-4:56 P.M.

DEC 31 2025             
      
               

   Hi!  I pretty much worked out Buying Music Making Software with my Dad.  Should Actually Get It tonight or tomorrow and MAKE SOME MUSIC this weekend!  I’ve been assuming it’s a download but maybe they ship me some sort of physical thing, I dunno!  WHAT COULD IT POSSIBLY BE.  Can’t be a CD.  Can’t be a USB. Can’t be a MICROCHIP.  No it must be an Instant Download!  Anyway.  Gonna see Marty Supreme with my brother in the city on Tuesday.  I know it’s supposed to be a good movie, but I dunno!  I liked Timothy Chalamet so much as Bob Dylan that I don’t wanna see him in any other role!  Also I am so jealous of his success that I don’t want to see him in any other role!  His career should fizzle out immediately ASAP IMO.  Dummy is apparently knocking it out of the park professionally and socially and culturally.  Seems wrong on the outside looking in.  Yeah!  Anyway.  He’s okay.  I guess.  He puts the work in!  I couldn’t do what he do!  I could barely do what I do and Nobody Is Asking For What I Do!  Anyway don’t put too much stock into How I Feel About Timothee Chalamet because that way you go into each of his films with a blank slate so we can appreciate Timothee Chalamat’s delightful characters All Over Again!  Our impressions of Timothee Chalamat: The Actor may vary over time but his characters will never change or something.  Huh.
    I could be an actor.  I AM an actor.  I’m pretending to be like everybody else but in my own way.  WHY.  I like the idea of being relatable but somehow unique!  HEY.  EVERYONE GETS ME BUT I’M KINDA DIFFERENT.  NOW WE’RE TALKING.  What a delightful scenario!  I dunno.  Am I just playing Myself?  Is that how Life works for me and/or everyone and/or some people?  I dunno!  Kinda rings true! Might be oversimplifying things a bit!   What’s so intrinsic about any part of my personality.  NOTHIN’.  Mostly any part of my persona I’m willing to adjust or compromise on in theory!  Michael it sounds like you’re just a sociopath.  NO I’M JUST WILLING TO, “YES, AND,” YOU I LEARNED IT IN IMPROV.  It’s an improv game!  It’s for fun!  It’s a for fun game!  Looks like we might get a lot of snow tomorrow.  Could be 2-4 inches.  Could be 3-6 inches.  Could be 4-8 inches.  JUST LIKE MY DICK.  Huh.  No Spoilers Please!  I dunno.  Looks like the movie about a Neil Diamond coverband is getting astronomical reviews.  Positive astronomical reviews!  Go figure.  Does that count as a music biopic?  Is Biopic pronounced Bi-op-ic?  I feel like I hear it pronounced that way pretty often which is very wrong!  Google says Official Pronunciation is The Way I Like.  Looks like I win again!
   ALRIGHT.  Watched Harry Versus Sally last night.  You know what I mean.  That Rob Reiner movie.  It’s an okay movie!  Leads off with a reference to some random person last named Kornblum.  That’s my last name!  I can’t remember seeing a Kornblum show up in a Major Motion picture before.  EVER.  Suddenly feels Really Jewish all of a sudden.  OLD AND JEWISH.  Such an Elderly Jewish last name.  Last names can’t be OLD.  Yeah they can.  This last name should have died out with the Holocaust or something, I dunno, something like that.  Either way I dunno.  I might be happier with a different last name but I do like the idea of Honoring My Ancestors so THERE’S THAT.  Anyway.  It’s an okay movie.  I can honor my ancestors in a different way.  What if I get KORNBLUM tattooed somewhere on my body but change my last name.  Bodies come and go but lastnames stay forever.  OKAY I tattoo Kornblum on my Kids’ Bodies and make ‘em promise to do the same?  Does that work?  I dunno.  I don’t wanna force my kids to Tattoo.  It works as a temporary solution, Me Doing It, but then it falls apart. What if I just live my life in such a way that people don’t think anti-semetic thoughts even when confronted with my last name.  Just really disarm ‘em somehow.  Make that the goal of my Persona.  Then it sounds like I’d be a self-hating Jew.  Oh that doesn’t sound good!
   I’m not a self hating Jew.  I’m just a Jew who wants to hide being a Jew in fear of being hated by OTHER people!  Anti-Semitism is on the rise!  Really catching on these days!  Scary stuff!  Anyway.  What if Jews were right all along?  WHAT IF JUDIAISM GOT GOD AND THE REST OF RELIGION RIGHT EVEN WHILE BEING PARTICULARLY HATED ON THIS WHOLE TIME.  Our picture of everything actually turns out to be 90, 95% Totally Accurate.  Odds are against it!  All religions are nonsense!  But on the off chance The Jews Were Right That’d Be A Real Kicker!  Anyway.  I dunno.  I don’t get the title When Harry Met Sally.  They Met in the beginning.  It was okay.  Wasn’t really the main part of the movie. WHO CARES about When Harry Met Sally. It was KIND OF important but not SO important.  Maybe I’m missing something.  What do I know.  Nothin’.  We’ve established I’m barely a real person.  How am I supposed to properly consume entertainment designed for Real People!  Gotta be tough!  Also why is this title so Harry-centric.  When HARRY met Sally.  How about a movie When SALLY Met Harry.  Why is Harry being given all the agency in this title.  Doesn’t seem right.  If you wanna be neutral the title really should have been When Harry and Sally Met.  Real catchy title, too!  Shoulda been titled When Harry And Sally The Two People Met.  Hmm.  How about just The Meeting.  Leaves something to the imagination!    
   I dunno!  I guess.  I bet if I never heard the line I’ll Have What She’s Having before I saw the movie I’d be like HAHAHA THAT’S THE FUNNIEST SHIT I’VE EVER HEARD when I actually saw it in the movie.  I can only IMAGINE what it must be like seeing it for the first time actually watching it in the film.  What an experience that must have been!  Anyway.  The Meeting sounds like an M Night Shyamalan film.  Or maybe a Tommy Wiseau film.  You know people who have made movies that started with, “The,” before.  Ah I Get It.  Hmm.  OH I KNOW.  I figured out what guitar pedal which might go well with my bass guitar to make it sound good recording it onto my computer!  The EQ pedal.  Off the top of my head that might work!  Distortion for Bass is dumb. Flanger or something like that would be pointless.  But EQ might hit the spot!  So that’s good.  What else is up.  There’s SEVEN levels on this EQ Pedal to adjust.  Think of all the different levels I can adjust!  Seven!  Make it sound like the bass is in the foreground or the background or some sort of middle ground, I dunno.  Either way I’ll figure something out.  Am I supposed to watch Stringer Thangs.  I know apparently Everyone is watching it.  I never seen it at all.  Not episode one!  I guess it’s time for me to watch Stringer Thangs.  I guess I’ll give it a shot!  I’ll see ya later.   

-5:38 P.M.

DEC 26 2025   

   Hey!  Getting CLOSER to doing music.  I think I have to buy software.  The crappy freeware version of the expensive software that came with the Pre-Amp I bought really isn’t enough for what I’m trying to accomplish!  Might have to spend Oh I Don’t Know $440 dollars on software moving forward if I wanna start writing songs again.  You shouldn’t need to spend money on a computer program to be able to Write A Song.  You’d think so but WRONG. Anyway I figured out how to use the basics so far I think so I’m on track to make some music before the year is over.  I’m getting a good sound out of my guitar just using my old distortion pedal from high school.  Talk about A BLAST from the past.  No amp needed!  Anyway.  I realized recently there’s a song I wrote freshman year of college that is Exactly A Nirvana Song that I definitely had never heard at the time.  I mean, not the entire song word for word, note for note.  Just Chord progression! But ALMOST EXACTLY THE SAME RHYTM AND BEAT AND PACING AND STRUM PATTERN.  Sounds exactly the same as him playing the chords as me playing it and it’s an unintuitive chord progression.  And the fact that we took that unintuitive chord progression and Made The Exact Same Thing Out Of It… feels cool!  Probably same Key as I would normally play it.  Anyway it’s Nirvana- Opinion.  My singing style went differently but that’s cool!  Different voc’s for different folks!  Also he sticks with only those chords the entire song.  My song had MORE.  Cause I’m a better artist I guess, I dunno.
    Christmas!  I celebrated by not having explicit nightmares last night.  The dreams I had were kind of pleasant this past nightmorn!  Anyway.  I got up a few times over the night this past night to eat a snack or use the bathroom and I thought If I were someone else, in a different situation, me getting up at this time could be up to no good Getting Up Out Of Bed And Doing Stuff And Getting Things in the middle of This Night.  What makes this night different than other nights.  Because it’s the night we partake of presents.  Well it’s the night the presents show up.  We partake the next day!  How come there’s not more people who try to capture Santa.  Why sleep while Santa delivers you your presents when you can ensnare Santa and get EVERYONE’S presents!  I’m not endorsing that kind of behavior I’m just acknowledging that’s how some people might think or act.  Most people who believe in Santa are little children and thus unable to pull something like that off.  Ah okay.  What’s the motive for telling your kids that Santa exists.  No, we your parents didn’t give you presents.  SANTA DID IT.  WE DON’T LOVE YOU.  SANTA LOVES YOU.  I don’t understand this religion!  I guess I get it. In theory Santa is FUN and MAGIC and CAPTIVATING and he gets children EXCITED.  Parents are OLD and BORING and WE GET IT, WHO CARES.
   HMM.  I’ll only see one movie this weekend.  It’ll probably be Anaconda!  Not totally completely looking forward to it but I like the people in it.  So what if it won’t be the best it possibly could be.  Who among us is!  Jesus.  That’s LITERALLY the meaning of Christmas.  Huh.  Anyway.  When was the last time I opened up a gift-wrapped present box.  A nice container that was covered in wrapping paper and even ribbons and had something of worth inside that presumably even I valued and wanted and in the end made use of or got joy from.  Hmm.  I dunno.  OH I KNOW Books!  Probably last Christmas I showed up for whenever that was, 2-3 years ago or more.  I got presents like that that turned out to be books that I read one-and-done that were okay.  Pop-History books.  Not the best but I read em so that’s an endorsement that I got something out of ‘em. Anyway.  Good Gifts can’t be books.  Try telling yourself as a child that a BOOK is a good gift.  Unless you were a NERD then You-As-Child would slap that book out of your hand and demand You-As-Adult DEMAND A NEW GIFT.  Try telling yourself as a child anything!  You can’t do it!  They exist in the past and you exist in the present and potentially future!  MAYBE time goes both ways, I dunno, not for me to say!!!
   Huh.  If I could tell myself as a child anything it’d be Don’t Touch The Stove!  I dunno what that means.  Hmm.  I did burn myself taking food out of the oven once.  THAT must be what I’m referring to.  Makes sense.  I think I still have the burn mark somewhere on my wrist or hand or arm but I forget where it is and now I don’t know where to look and I’m starting to doubt if this even happened at all!  What else is going on.  Five paragraphs isn’t enough to get into a groove.  Also this font isn’t a good one to get into a groove.  ALSO I’m not so sure about this domain name.  ALSO the planet we live on?  Not happy about it!  I like the word groove.  One of those words that Is What It Means.  You get into a groove right in the middle of it.  The two, “O’”’s.  GROOVE right in the center of the word REAL GROOVY.  Makes sense.  Remember president Gerbert Groover.  No.  Fair enough.  $440 Software for Music is only just as expensive as School Of Rock for one month.  Not even counting transportation!  IT’S worth ONE MONTH of School!  Sure!  Let’s do it. Make that purchase today.  Why not.  It’s a Christmas miracle.  Anyway.  The year is winding down.  I should do a top ten list.  Of what.  I’m not sure.  For David Letterman Top Ten lists, is it completely in Ascending Funniest Order?  Does it go Ten is least Funny and One is Most Funny?  That was always my baseline subconscious assumption but it’s gotta be a LOT more complicated than that!  Gotta be an entire SCIENCE devoted to DL Top Ten List.  That science is obsolete.  Huh.
    Alright.  Whenever I turn on my TV I see David Letterman.  For some reason that’s what my TV decided to show me.  The David Letterman Streaming Channel.  Random DL clips.  I could complain but I won’t!  Anyway.  I started watching David Letterman and then sometimes Conan afterwards really young.  Possibly when I was 6-7.  I would go into my brother’s room and we’d watch it on his TV.  I was reminded of that recently.  Something SET ME OFF.  Huh.  It’s sad to think in a generation we might not have Late Night TV.  What are kids and their brothers supposed to do late at night?  It’s too late to play Sega Genesis!  Mom and Dad won’t allow it! Late Night Talk Show is a special carve out of the rules!  Anyway.  I dunno.  Gotta imagine some form of the format will live on!  I’ll imagine it for ya!  Anyway.  When I was in high school I binged Late Night Talk Shows like a fiend.   It was the dawn of DVR/TIVO.  And I made good use of that to watch All The Good Shows at my leisure.  So I watched four hours Of Late Night four nights a week!  WHAT FUN.  What?  FUN?  I GUESS.  IN A WAY.  OFTEN IT WAS.  In many ways it was a golden age with lots of peak comedy and laughs.  But also I felt something MISSING if I didn’t watch each and every episode of all the shows I liked so it was an unhealthy obsession almost in a way!  So there were pros and cons!  Well, anyway.  That’s all for today!  Happy HOLIDAYS you fools.

-3:30 P.M.

DEC 25 2025

     Hey!  What’s going on.  What.  With ME?  Or with you.  Or with Some Other People.  Actually I was just starting to sing the Marvin Gaye song before I was so rudely interrupted.  I hate the world.  Keeps interrupting me while I’m here just trying to sing songs!  Well, let’s see, Avatar III was okay!  I stopped taking .5 Marijuana Gummies while I see Movie Theater Movies.  That had become standard practice for me for a couple of years but the last couple of months I just buy me an extra-large beer and that’s enough fun for me.  No high leads to an increased likelihood of Me Completely Following The Plot.  Good!  You see these aliens have tall lanky bodies so you know they’re kind of like Earthlings but slightly different or something.  Is Earthling a slur.  Seems like a word only a NON-Earthling would say.  I’m not personally offended by it but I guess it all depends on the context.  If I’m called an Earthling, I like how it implies I’m part of a group!  You’re calling me an Earthling, suddenly hey, I’m just like everyone else!  You may not know this but Other Earthlings aren’t so quick to claim me. Think I’m some sort of a jerk or something.  Freak, I dunno.  Being called an Earthling is the best day of my life.  Anyway the movie was okay.  I still HATE the islands of land in the sky.  I remember seeing them pop up earlier in the franchise and it disturbing me.  Just floating bits of land up in the sky of this alien planet.  WHAT.  HOW.  WHY IS HAPPENING.  Is there a good physics explanation for how this could possibly happen?  Cause I don’t recall ever learning about this ever occurring in real life planets.  EXPLAIN.
    Anyway.  Hopefully I work on music tomorrow for the first time in a few weeks.  I got it all planned out.  Do it.  That’s as far as I got with the plan.  Not the most complicated plan but it should be good anyway as long as I follow through.  It all starts with WAKING UP.  My plan begins with Wake Up Well tomorrow.  Good.  Don’t lollygag and stay in bed for 5 hours after alarm first goes off.  It’s important to Get Up!  Stand Up!  Stand up for your rights?  What right should I stand up for specifically.  Hmm.  Lemme think about that.  Right to a speedy trial?  The voting rights act?  THE RIGHT TO REMAIN SILENT?  I dunno.  When police arrest you, I know we have the right to remain silent, but do we also have the right to talk or yell as much as we want?  That seems like a corollary right that we SHOULD have.  We OUGHT to be allowed to MAKE OURSELVES HEARD indefinitely once detained.  While they slap the cuffs on ya they go You have the right to complain very loudly and there’s nothing we can do about it.  I dunno.  I know, in 2025 we don’t have some of the rights we’re supposed to have.  IN PREMISE we might have some rights but IN PRACTICE we don’t necessarily have ‘em.  Just might be detained for no reason and without due process or anything.  It’s really not good!  The good news is Maybe One Day This Will End!
   I like those odds!  Don’t think I’ll go to Christmas with the Extended Fam this year.  My Dad isn’t driving.  I’d have to take public transportation to New Jersey.  That’s a hassle and a half.  Even more. It’s like two full hassles.  MORE than 1.5 hassles!  Plus I don’t even FOLLOW this religion!  Christmas is about Family not Religion.  Then why isn’t it called Fammas.  Famous.  Huh.  I just figured out what, “Famous,” means.  It’s a portmanteau analogous to Christmas.  Fam-mas.  I guess.  All I Want For Christmas Is My Two Front Teeth.  What a sad life that narrator must lead.  Also what happened to them exactly.  Did their teeth get knocked out or something.  Did they just lose baby teeth or something and they’re waiting on Adult Teeth?  WHAT’S GOING ON EXACTLY there.  I just looked up the lyrics.  NO ANSWERS.  Don’t know why or what’s going on!  I think it revolves around a tongue-in-cheek joke that Santa can’t understand them because they’re missing their two front teeth.  But I CAN’T understand WHY they’re missing their two front teeth!  And WHAT EXACTLY you expect Santa to do about it!  Anyway.  Whatever.  All I want for Christmas is my two front teeth. YOUR 2 front teeth ARE GONE.  They’re not coming back! Whatever you get is gonna be something foreign to your Dental Area!  Something new!  You’ll get used to it I’m sure but it’s never gonna be the same!
    Anyway.  I got SEVEN Cavities filled this past summer 2025 to remember.  Before that I had a total of one filling in my entire lifetime.  Then this summer I had seven all at once.  Life Update For Ya.  Wonderful.  AT least it encouraged me to start brushing my teeth.  Now I brush every night! REAL half-assed brushing.  Started off as a minute or so, but now it’s maybe like ten or fifteen seconds of brushing.  But it’s more than nothing!  What do you do with the toothpaste at the back of the tube.  I can tell it’s there.  There’s still paste in the back that I can’t figure out how to squeeze from there to the front!  I guess I can cut the tube open down the middle.  Do a Cesarean Section of the toothpaste tube to get that hard-to-reach toothpaste.  There ya go.  Problem solved.  Okay.  Anyway.  HAVE I ACTUALLY LEARNED one of the scales taught to me in School Of Rock School?  Yes!  They taught me four or half a dozen scales over the past six months and I’d say a solid ONE OF THEM is committed to memory.   I think the Minor Pentatonic Scale.  That one!  Yep.  Gotcha.  The Minor Scale, too.  Just Regular Minor Scale.  I think I got that one down, too!  This is in the last month.  They first taught it to me a few months ago, then re-taught it to me a few weeks ago, and now I’m like YAEH.  I THINK… YEAH… I GET THESE TWO SCALES.
   Who KNOWS how helpful or unhelpful that will be!  How could it be unhelpful.  It negates my natural creativity and impulses!  I dunno! Whatever.  Might hurt in the short term only to ultimately be better in the long term Once I Learn EVERYTHING!  Anyway we’re past Peak Sunset.  I BELIEVE the Winter Solstice is the earliest sunset of the year.  And that’s over and done with!  It’s all uphill from here!  Who cares whether it’s getting dark at 4:32 P.M. or 4:34 P.M.  I DUNNO WINTER FARMERS?  I assume some stuff grows in the winter.  Yeah it’s called SNOW dumbass.  Well anyway.  How many times have I eaten snow and why am I pretty sure it’s greater than zero.  SOMEWHERE they taught me to eat snow.  I can’t remember if it was TV or SCHOOL or some extra-curricular activity.  But somewhere I was advised on How To Eat Snow.  Put syrup or juice or something on it and whatknot.  And it was a SOMEWHAT RESPECTED authority figure I’m pretty sure.  If it WAS TV it was EDUCATIONAL TV or something like that.  Well, anyway.  What else is up.  LOOK in other days and environments eating flavored snow I guess is okay.  I can understand it in certain scenarios.  But in New York in the 21^st century in my neighborhood where people walk their dogs and whatknot I would not recommend it!  Anyway.  I’ll see ya later!

-4:15 P.M

DEC 23 2025         

     Hi.  I was only gonna write entries on Tues/Thurs but I got bored this /Fri!  An extra five paragraphs could do no harm!  I started watching Avatar I earlier.  It’s better than I remember it!  I may have never seen it.  Nothing is the worst memory of all.  Either way there’s totally Dialogue and Action and Plot and I’m into it because I just remember it being some sort of 2.5 hour screen savor of blue people jumping here and there amongst nature or something.  It may still devolve into that!  Let’s not count our Avatars before they Avatar!  What’s Avatar as verb.  Avatate. Started learning song for Next Season of School Of Rock which is Blues themed.  This current season’s show is Jan 10^th so we start after that officially but I guess I’m getting a Head Start!  I started on B.B. King’s The Thrill Is Gone.  It’s a good song and it was a thrill to listen to and start learning it!  Thrill is NOT gone as of now but I guess eventually inevitably one day it will be!  The house always wins in the end!  I hope it’s my house.  I have a house.  Someone’s house gotta wins.  Maybe it’ll be mine.  I really hope to live in an apartment one day.  It may mean I’m a loser compared to living in a house.  When you play MASH we all agree apartment is one step down.  But I don’t care about any of that!  Is Apartment originally an Italian-American word.  “Hey what kind of place do you live in?” “It’s An A-Part-ment!”  I don’t stand by that. 
     Because the compound Italian-American-Word doesn’t make sense!  A Part Of WHAT?  A Part of a MENT?  What’s A MENT?  What’s-a-ment-a-you?  Un-good.  I hold the last few sentences in poor standing.  I don’t like it.  Hmm.  Sigourney Weaver sure knows her aliens.  How many times has she met an alien.  Lots!  Alien.  Avatar.  Now that I look it up GALAXY QUEST.  Looks like she was in Wall-E which is possibly Space Based.  I never seen it.  I may have seen it but just thought it was a Screen Savior.  I MAY just have a bad habit of Not Registering Movies And It’s Possibly My Fault Not The Movie’s.  I may just have a bad habit of not registering LIFE.  Entire Life is passing me by and I Don’t Get It!  Anyway.  I got new Amps a few weeks ago.  Guitar and Bass.  Guitar Amp is a step down from the last one I had which kinda sucks.  I think I can figure out a couple of ways to set the knobs at which sound good but then I’m gonna have to REMEMBER those settings!  Or just choose ONE single way of setting them and leave it there. Bass amp sucks but it’s my first Bass Amp ever so it’s still a step up from nothing.  I’m kinda interested in starting to learn to play the blues and/or just learning to play  8 or 10 random blues songs.  Because it’s just a basic structure that you can do over and over and then there’s plenty of songs based on that.  Lemme Do This Too!  I can write Blues rock songs me-myself!  YEAH.
     I think America is READY for a rock band that sometimes flirts with being a semi-blues band.  I dunno.  America doesn’t even seem to be ready for a Rock Band in general.  All America wants is TIK TOK and VAPING.  And even that impression of what America wants is possibly five years behind.  Chatbots now or something, I dunno.  America.  Wants.  Chatbots!  That’s what I’ve been led to believe!  I don’t think I’ve ever talked to a chatbot.  Does Customer Service count as a chatbot.  Like, when you ask for Help somewhere, and then some sort of Microsoft Paperclippy Knockoff pops up and is like HEY HOW CAN I HELP YOU? Is THAT a chat bot?  Cause then I have used Chatbot.  And I hated it.  I can’t relate to these things at all.  Chatbot being ubiquitous with modern state of the art AI is weird.  Because it’s kind of implying the ultimate use of complicated artificial intelligence is TO CHAT.  HEY WE’RE DEVELOPING THE MOST INTELLIGENT THING POSSIBLE.  HAVE A NICE CHAT WITH IT.  I dunno.  I don’t wanna chat with anybody or anything.  But specifically why would I want to chat with a pile of circuits and machinery.  Hey How was your day.  I could possibly see some use from A.I. maybe but CHATTING WITH IT is pretty far from the potential gain I can get from it!  I guess I’m missing something! 
   Chats suck.  I hate chats.  All my therapy is basically chatting.  That’s what my psychiatrist and other-therapist basically do with the over 90% of the time I see them.  Chat!  Great.  This accomplishes nothing.  Thanks for wasting our times.  Maybe it’s my fault.  I’m just the kind of guy you look at and are like I ain’t getting anywhere with this guy.  I’m just gonna chat with him because anything else is pointless.  When I was younger and more personable chatting was okay.  I was the king of chatting!  I could make people laugh and feel good about being friends with me.  But now I suck and chatting sucks and who needs it.  Hmm.  Got two super market deliveries coming in the next two hours.  Both of em!  Separate But Equal!  I dunno how equal they are.  Amazon Fresh delivery may be more than equal than Fresh Direct is.  Or vice versa!  It all depends on how you’re looking at it.  We often get three  deliveries at the exact same time, with Whole Foods rounding it off, but no Whole Foods today! WOW.  Great Story.  I’d like to buy the movie rights.  Never!  This is the greatest story never told!  That’s how I feel.  What else is up.  Broke my back-up electric guitar a few weeks ago because Can’t You Hear Me Knocking is in a different tuning, so instead of wasting time changing the tuning, I would just bring a second guitar already tuned to it.  ANYWAY I was illogically bringing it in my bass guitar case, which is bigger because bass guitars are bigger, so it didn’t really protect the regular guitar, and anyway when I checked it when I got home I found the guitar had snapped in half along the bridge!  That was a negative thing that happened to me.
    Well, okay.  Great.  Lots of things have broken the last couple of months for me.  Hopefully that string of brokenness has come to a close.  I think it has!  Everything pretty much has already broken!  If more things were to break it’d have to be the brand new things that replaced the broken things!  Maybe I’M broken. I’m not broken.  I was just made Never Well in the first place.  Anyway.  I’m looking forward to watching the rest of Avatar.  Avatar is a very powerful movie but do you know who holds the most power?  A-VOTER.  2026 Midterms, think about it.  That sort of thing.   I voted this past November!  I didn’t know what I was voting for half the time but that didn’t stop me!  I didn’t look into how to vote for the propositions really.  And I know they phrase these proposition prompts misleadingly so it’s impossible to know whether I’m voting the right way or not, but I’ll GUESS Yes or No either way!  Also some things I just DON’T KNOW even if it was phrased 100% straight forwardly.  It’s just random stuff that I don’t know the consequences of!  Should we do This or Should we do That.  I DON’T KNOW.  I’ll GUESS. But I HAVE NO IDEA.  Anyway, I’ll be back.

-3:35 P.M

DEC 19 2025   
    

     Hey!  It’s time to write an entry.  I guess something will appear.  I have some sort of a brain to conjure up thoughts and some sort of body and appendages to mechanically put those ideas down and a keyboard and a computer to accept my body’s wishes.  IT’S ALL LIES.  NONE OF THIS IS ANYTHING.  IT’S ALL NOTHING.  NOT A THING.  WE’RE READING EMPTY BLANKNESS AND THE WIND.  Anyway I got a new computer last week.  The old one stopped working all of a sudden.  I like new things.  Products.  It feels good because this computer is gonna last me Forever.  Or at least Rounding Off To Forever.  A few years is closer to Forever than Zero.  Rounds off to forever!  This brand of computer is Asus.  IS that like a FUBU situation brand name.  As Us For Us?  Makes sense if the CPU ever achieves consciousness or if we’re comparing it lifelike like AI to humanity.  It’s AS US FOR US.  Anyway.  If it was a FUBU situation then As Us would be an acronym.  As Us For Us would be an inappropriate extrapolation.  INAPPROPRIATE EXTRAPOLATION!  I should try rapping.  Record a rap song.  Just to see what I’m capable of.  I’m probably not capable of that.  That was quick.  I found out what I was capable of in less than 8 seconds just now!

     What’s my theme if I were to put together a rap album.  Hustle and Flow or something.  That was already a thing in a movie!  Yeah but I never saw it.  I’ve watched 8 Mile a dozen times and I guess I like it but there’s always something about it that just feels wrong.  Can’t say quite what it is.  Part of it I think it’s because Why would Eminem’s character ever go by Rabbit.  Too easy for his rap opponents to call him the, “F,” word.  It would come up too often!  UNREALISTIC MOVIE.  Even without the, “F,” word it’s just not a good name.  Also I think Actual Eminem is a great rapper but I don’t think B-Rabbit is that good.  Here and there he shows some promise but I’m not sold on B-Rabbit ever achieving that much success, I dunno.  But Michael he’s just starting off this is the beginnings he’s gonna get better.  People don’t get better.  People get worse.  That’s how humanity works in general and how The Rap Game works in specific I would assume!  Anyway.  It’s named after a street.  That exists.  Sometimes Eminem had to cross the street.  We Must Name The Movie After That.  Brilliant work guys.  Why did Eminem Cross The Street.  Why.  To rap or something I dunno, yeesh.  To be fair the second of two times I did mushrooms I spent hours having deep conversations with my friends and on my way home I wrote down just one thing in my travel notepad to remember and it was The Street I had just walked down. That I live near and see all the time.  Wow.  Streets are deep I guess.  Hmm.

     Is B-Rabbit as a character DOOMED because of the fable Tourtaise and The Hare.  And there’s a Tourtaise out there and whoever/whatever that person or thing or concept they are they are destined to succeed over B-Rabbit!  I dunno.  Do fairy tales always come true?  I dunno.  I practiced my Rolling Stones songs for the first time yesterday in like a month if we don’t count the times I play them during lessons.  Alright!  I’m not great at them.  But I’ll do a half-assed job I guess.  I could always start practicing every day or three times a week or something for the next 3 weeks until the show in 3 weeks.  If I did that I’d probably a respectable job by the time Show Comes Round.  Yeah!  I bought a BASS GUITAR this summer.  School Of Rock assigned me a song or two on the bass, thinking I’d be interested.  I was!  I had to buy a bass guitar though.  I did!  It’s fun!  I’m into it!  Still don’t really know what I’m doing but that applies to most aspects of my life!  At least playing bass guitar is FUN while I don’t know what I’m doing.  Most aspects of my life I just don’t know what I’m doing without it being much fun.    I should make a pact with myself to work on music this weekend.  Can’t really do it Friday.  Busy.  Can’t really do it Saturday!  Still busy!  I should make a pact with myself to work on music this Sunday.  Wow.  Sunday.

     Okay.  When Harry Met Sally.  I can’t take either of these people seriously.  Their names end in, “Y!”  Get actual serious names and then I’ll watch your movie.  I might sometimes go by Michael, I might sometimes go by Mike, but never in my life have I ever said my name was Mikey.  Now that I think about it maybe there’s some merit to Mikey.  Hey Mikey Get Over Here.  Who said that.  I don’t want to be Mikey.  They better not be talking to me.  There’s no good reason for the moniker, “Mikey!”  Just like these entries.  It’s not funny or creative or different.  It does kill a little bit of time.  My theory is people just want to kill time and are VERY desperate.  It’s a good theory!  I should come up with better theory, sure, I guess.  Anyway it was my birthday last week.  I turned, lemme think, thirty SEVEN.  I figure I got a few good years left in me!  THREE or so!  That’s a few!  Then I’m old.  Kinda sucks.  I wanna do something with my life, yet much of my life is over!  Kind of a conundrum.  Real BRAIN TEASER.  People can do something with their lives in their forties.  I guess.  Then declare victory after Doing Something for 8 or 10 years and retire, having done things!  Life Accomplished.  You don’t retire when you’re 50, you gotta keep doing things even though you’re older.  Oh.  That’s true.  You gotta Do OLDER THINGS.  That’s great.  The point is at this rate I will continue doing nothing forever.  And I’m not facetiously rounding off to forever.  I just mean forever!

    THAT’S GREAT.  That’s wrong I’m building up to something.  Not sure what.  We’ll see!  Some sort of achievement, I don’t know.  It’s called 8 Mile, they tell us, because 8 Mile represents the division between White & Black Detroit or something.  That’s what I remember them saying.  BUT the movie, as far as I can tell, isn’t really ABOUT the division between White & Black Detriout!  Race is relevant but not really that much a key issue in the movie!  Maybe it’s key to B Rabbit’s inner story but I watch the movie and I’m not thinking about White & Black Detroit all the time while I’m watching it!  I Dunno!  Anyway there’s a very romantic scene where Eminem has sex with Brittany Murphy in a factory.  I guess.  Not sure what to make of their relationship.  She motivates him to rap well!  Something like that.  Anyway.  Christmas is in a week.  Santa’s Coming!  Probably.  People have been getting Christmas Gifts for hundreds of years without fail.  No reason to think it’ll stop this year.     I might watch Mad Men soon.  I never seen it before.  It might be too intense. It involves the 1950’s and that just seems like a lot to handle.  People were jerks and assholes back then and I dunno if I could stand immersing myself in that kind of environment!  We’ll see.  Anyway, I’ll see ya soon!     

-1:52 P.M

DEC 18 2025

               Hey, friends!  It’s been a solid Pregnancy’s Worth Of Time since the last entry.  Almost. Eight months.  That’s a Premature Pregnancy!  I was a Preemee which is a word I CAN SAY BUT YOU CAN’T.  I was born five weeks early because I Got Things To Do And Places To Be.  Not really.  In fact it’s pretty antithetical to my Post-Womb life.  I got Nothing To Do And Nowhere To Be.  In fact, if I could fit, I would probably re-enter my mother’s womb and just hang out there!   Warm and toasty in that there embryonic sac. Huh.  I do like choosing my own food.  Can’t get Chipotle as a fetus.  I’d like to see you try!  You can’t do anything as a fetus.  I’ve seen blue infrared scans on Doctor’s Equipment on TV Shows and fetii are never doing ANYTHING.  Just floating there like idiots the entire time.  That’s my argument for abortion rights.  That’s how I know they’re not people.  If they were people THEY’D BE DOING STUFF.  If that was a person in there IT’D BE DOING A THING.  But Michael surely fetus is doing some sort of crap.  I dunno!  We can’t say for sure.  We can only speculate.  AS WITH ALL MATTERS OF DEBATE.  WE can only speculate! That’s the world we live in.  I think the student run newspaper for my high school was called The Spectator.  Terrible name.  Don’t just spectate!  GET IN THERE.  GET YOUR HANDS DIRTY.  I wanna see you guys get involved!  Are we supposed to go along with Michael jumping from, “Speculate,” to, “Spectator,” and just accept that.  Yeah!  We’re supposed to accept lots of things! 

               I’ve been doing The School Of Rock: The Music Learning Organization Programme since June.  The thing is, you got Group Lessons with 10 or 12 people on Monday nights, with people who play all different instruments and/or sing, and I got private lessons on Thursdays!  It’s fun!  I learned how to play Pat Benetar and Joan Jett songs over the summer and now some Rolling Stone songs over the Fall. And I’m also getting better at the guitar in general.  And it’s FUN playing with people.  And they’re cool!  The other students.  The teachers.  It’s a real 8 out of 10 out of how good it could possibly realistically be!  ALSO been recording a lot of my own bullshit over the course of the year.  The improvising half-assed half-length quarter-decent songs!  Amassed a lot of crap!  I haven’t done any in a couple of weeks because the 8-track machine stopped working! Can’t export anymore!  I bought a pre-amp to replace it!  So I’d record music directly to my computer and mix it on my cumputer instead!  Ultimately it’ll be better but it’s hard to motivate myself to start because I’m not used to doing it this way so I don’t know exactly how to get started!  DANGIT.  Also I don’t know whether to write the weird half-assed quarter decent one eighth worthwhile songs, OR start to try writing real songs now.  I don’t know where to go with music as of this very moment!

     OH NO.  WE READ A PARAGRAPH.  WITH NO JOKES.  It was just an update of Michael’s life.  I don’t know if life is worth living anymore.  Anyway.  I was watching Spinal Tap II Sunday afternoon and then decided to re-watch Stand By Me and then I was near the end of that I got news about Robert Reiner’s presumed death.  Kinda eerie. I didn’t like it!  Anyway.  I was sad.  The sadness lasted from Saturday into Monday and possibly into this morning, I can’t say though for sure.  I definitely remember still being sad Monday Night at Band Practice.  Also last night I watched NORTH which is, according to critics, one of the worst movies of all time, and, according to me… it’s kinda funny!  And at least they’re trying something new!  They’re GOING FOR SOMETHING.  I give North one thumbers sideways and one peace sign.  Also North’s main parents are George Costanza and Elaine Benes.  In what kind of bizzarro world did they get together and become married.  In THIS bizarro world.  Maybe that’s what’s throwing everyone off.  Seinfeld core characters, who would NEVER hook up, are now married.  Is that what’s disturbing people?

    Anyway.  Trying to figure out a schedule moving forward.  Might wanna write 2 entries a week as part of it.  That’s the way to go!  People like WORDS.  Anyway, I agreed to see the new Avatar this weekend with my brother and that’s gonna be a long three hours.  Anyway.  The Pen is mightier than the sword.  Sword.  Words. Pen writes words.  Just move the “S,” in Words to the beginning.  There’s something there.  I DON’T GET IT.  I’ve never even seen half these Rob “Not Zombie,” Reiner movies.  Princess Pride.  All The Right Men.  The American President.  I’m taking everyone’s word for it that they exist.  But as far as I know there’s only the 30-60 seconds of each of them that I’ve seen along with the titles.  Argue With Me.  Anyway.  I’m sort of a selfish guy.  One part of us losing Rob Reiner that makes me sad is Well I guess I’ll Never Get to Meet Him Now.  Add him to the list of Robin Williams, George Carlin, etc.  People that I never thought of it before they died, but once they die, I’m like, well, I really valued their perspective while they were here.  Kinda wish I coulda just talked to them or something.  And now they’re not here.  Their work remains.  Which is good.  But it’s not the same.  AH WELL.  Life goes on.  NOT FOR EVERYBODY.  THAT’S ONE OF THE POINTS.  Well whatever.

     Okay.  Shaking the cobwebs off.  Next entry will be better!  I already talked about the life updates that are boring.  And the death updates that are boring!  Everything else is interesting presumably.   Been reading a lot this year.  I just read the Cameron Crowe book.  That was a pretty good one!   He was friends with musicians… get this… as a teenager!  AND I LISTENED TO MUSIC AS A TEENAGER.  I almost was reminded of those feelings here and there while reading the book.  I CAME CLOSE to feeling things almost at times during points at the book.  So that’s good.  Anyway.  Can I get someone to be an Avatar for me while we’re seeing Avatar so I don’t have to see it?  Is that how Avataring works?  I’m not sure how Avatar works.  Anyway.  For Music Class, we sometimes get together to practice in one of the guy’s houses, which I like.  I’d like to do it even more!  And I’d like to do more than practice the SOR songs.  I’d like for some of them to JAM WIDTH ME even further.  The level of interest for that is hard to gauge, though, from my classmates.  Not too high.  Maybe a bit of medium level interest that people are shy about expressing.  Anyway.  That’s all for today!  I’ll see ya when I see ya!

-12:59 P.M.     

DEC 16 2025